Mental Health: Expectations vs Reality

               Seeking therapy for mental health is important!  I was diagnosed with Crohn’s disease at such a young age (16).  A time in my life where I should have been being rebellious against my parents, and sneaking out to go party.  Instead I was in and out of the hospital getting treatments and trying to get better so I didn’t have to have surgery and get a colostomy bag at the age of 16.  Since my diagnosis of Crohn’s Disease, I have been to 7 different doctors.  I started out seeing a doctor in Virginia, which is where I was diagnosed after a colonoscopy.  Virginia is such a beautiful state.  Tyler and I actually moved there for almost a year, while I was receiving infusions.  Tyler got a job at the oil refinery as a laborer.  This was good for the both of us.  I was motivated to get better so we could move back home to Pa, and Tyler was motivated to never have to work as a laborer again.  He was so motivated that he started his own business and is now his own boss.  After we returned back home to Pa, I went through 2 doctors that didn’t have the education about Crohn’s disease to even be treating it…  Finally, my dad found a doctor in Pittsburgh that was fantastic!  Dr. Baidoo was one of the best physicians I have ever met, and I went to him for about 6 years.  Unfortunately, Dr. Baidoo got a new job and moved out of state.  After that I would see some Geisinger doctors that picked me up as a patient from being an inpatient in the hospital.  This is around the time that I developed chronic c-diff from being in the hospital.  Once again, my dad found me a good doctor at the Cleveland Clinic.  This wouldn’t last as long as it should have though.  I switched jobs in October of 2019 because my boss decided to move to Montana.  Switching jobs also entailed switching insurance companies, which also meant I would yet again have to switch doctors because Cleveland Clinic did not take my insurance.  This is so frustrating, and this is also where mental health therapy comes in.  When I started seeing my new current physician, they set up an appointment for me to speak with a counselor.  At first, I kind of shrugged it off thinking I don’t need to talk to anybody.  The first phone call was amazing!  I never realized that I had bottled up so much emotion from all of these illnesses.  I thought I was so good at just rolling with the punches.  I am constantly trying to “fake it till I make it”.  I realized I’m not making it anywhere, and these chronic illnesses are not going away, there is no cure.  My counselor suggested I look into a therapist that is local, as it takes about 2 ½ hours to get to their offices.  I started looking into therapist locally and almost instantly I noticed that a lot of them do not accept medical assistance health insurance.  WHAT?  How is this even legal?  I would think that all facilities, and staff working in a place like this would want to help everyone they possibly could.  Now we are being judged because of the insurance we have?  It made me feel horrible.  Mental health should be covered no matter what insurance you have.  I know that the physicians are not reimbursed at a higher rate when taking medical assistance, but why would you get into this career if you didn’t really care about the client’s best interest?  People look down on other people who have medical assistance, or food stamps, etc.  That makes me so sad.  Sometimes people are on welfare because they lost their job, or they were just diagnosed with an illness that is going to cost them a lot of money for medications/treatments.  It is just a shame that insurance has such a hold on people. It should not be this way. If you are interested in finding a therapist near you, here is a really good site to help assist in locating a therapist locally:  .  All you have to do is put your zip code in and it will show you therapist near you.  On the left-hand side, you will see a list of insurance companies, all you have to do is click on the insurance you have and it will list therapist in your area that accepts your insurance.  It’s really disgusting the power insurance companies have over Americans.  Is America the only country that has insurance companies dictating peoples lives?  I am lucky to have the best moral support behind me.  I may not have been blessed with the strongest health, but I have been blessed with the best family and friends.  Please do not hesitate to reach out to me with any questions or if you need someone to talk to.  No judgement here!  If I can help out in any way, I am up for it.  Thank you again for taking time out of your life to read my blog.

“We are only as strong as we are united, as weak as we are divided.”
Albus Dumbledore

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